You Know I Know You Knw, Don't You?
"What did you just say?" I ask openly staring at Blair and catching a glimpse of the concerned looks on both Sam and Jack's faces.
"I asked you if you didn't think that things would be better if you were to drop the act and I told you that I'm game if you are."
"That's what I thought you said," I say, glaring at my brother, swallowing hard and trying to figure a way out of this one... unfortunately there doesn't seem to be one, not this time around.
"For what it's worth I promise we are not out to get you," he says, trying to reassure me, though I've got to say it's not working.
Not knowing what else to do --and hoping to call his bluff even though I'm fairly certain he is not bluffing-- I ask: "How did you figure it out?"
"Your theories and your combined skills, mostly," he explains, shrugging his shoulders as if it were the most natural thing in the world. "I have to say that we didn't put it together until last night. Up until then it didn't seem to make sense but as far fetched as the idea that your theories were actually correct sounded at first glance, it still made far more sense than the idea that the military had an archeologist who believes that the pyramids were built by aliens working side by side with a covert-ops specialist and an astrophysicist on something having to do with deep space telemetry due to some sort of coincidence."
Well, when he puts it like that I guess it does make sense but that doesn't make this situation any less awkward... or less dangerous. Basically we came to Cascade to prevent a security breach and somehow we ended up inadvertently causing one. I don't think General Hammond is going to be happy about that... though on a positive note, last night Jack did say that one of the reasons why bringing Jim and Blair on board was not feasible was the need for secrecy and it seems to me that that need for secrecy is no longer an issue. That is a good thing, or at least a very healthy silver lining as far as I'm concerned. And that reminds me that we are not the only ones keeping secrets around here and that is something I can use to my advantage. After all, turnabout is definitely fair play.
"Yes, well, I guess I'm not the only one in this room who has gotten himself in more than his fair share of trouble for daring to believe in some crazy theory that actually turned out to be far less crazy than the 'sane people' would like to believe, am I?" I say, keeping a close eye on Blairs reaction though he doesn't seem to be all that surprised by the fact that I know. In fact if his smile is anything to go by then chances are that he already knew I knew.
I throw a quick glance Jack's way and I can see that he is not looking particularly happy about any of this, not that I was expecting him to. First of all there's the fact that we were caught so far off guard by Blair's initial comment that we lost our window of opportunity for anything remotely resembling a plausible denial --something that's not usually a good thing when you've been sworn to secrecy by your own government-- and now on top of that it is becoming increasingly apparent that even my attempts at turning the tables on them have somehow played straight into their hands. The way this is turning out it's beginning to look like my brother is holding all the aces and knowing Jack he is feeling more than a little exposed, even if it is painfully obvious that neither Blair nor Jim are a real threat, far from it.
"Fair enough," says Blair without even a glance at Jim and that is when I realize that they probably planned this whole thing last night... and in a way it does make sense. It is obvious that somehow they figured out that we knew Jim's secret and once that happened they had nothing to lose. The only problem is that while that is a perfectly rational explanation for the current situation, it is a rational explanation that explains the current situation but is not much use when it comes to modifying that situation.
"So, where do we go from here?" I ask, hating how tense things have suddenly gotten around here.
"As I told you yesterday, that's up to you, man... I just wanted to spare us all the tap dancing 'cos I don't know about you guys but as far as I'm concerned it does have a tendency to get old awfully fast. I won't lie to you, I want us to be friends and to have a chance to get to know one another... it's just that somehow I felt that all those secrets were bound to get in our way and seeing how we both knew what the other was hiding anyway, I figured we might as well come out and get rid of them altogether," he explains.
I go over his words and I can't help but realize that he is almost certainly right about that and that as awkward as things have suddenly gotten around here at least we are now finally in a position to move past all of this... and I also realize why he did it, why he was the only one who could do it. Yes, we were both trying to hold on to our secrets but the basic difference between us was that while the choice of whether or not he was willing to share his secret remained his own, Jack, Sam and I didn't really have that luxury... and the sad fact is that even though he's managed to overcome our need for silence that still doesn't mean we are in the clear.
The problem is not that he is wrong, he has in fact come to the correct conclusion and there's nothing we can do to change that. That is the problem. The problem is that seeing how he's managed to reach his own conclusions based more on a deductive process than on any hard evidence, chances are that he doesn't realize just how important the secrets we are hiding really are. He has no way of knowing that what we are hiding are not a few aliens or a weather balloon but rather a full blown war, a war that already has come close to bringing about the end of life as we know it more than once... and that means that we have a decision to make here.
The current situation is far from ideal and our best bet may well be to come clean. It is true that we've been sworn to secrecy but I suspect that that is no longer an issue. Yes, it's going to take us a while to get over the shock of this latest development, especially because the truth is that we were caught totally off guard --and I can see how that is bothering Jack more than anything else-- but that doesn't mean that we can afford to do nothing here. The fact remains that whether we like it or not this is one instance in which a full disclosure is bound to be less dangerous than a partial one. We need to get them to understand just how important keeping the secret really is and that means that we are going to have no choice but to tell Jim and Blair the whole truth.
On a positive note, that means that I will finally get a shot at really getting to know my brother. As far as I'm concerned that makes this whole mess more than worth it.