What Tomorrow Brings
It's been an interesting day to say the least. All I can say is that I never thought that today was going to be the day in which I got to meet my brother... in fact this morning I was all but resigned to the fact that I was never going to meet the man. I had wanted to... desperately. Up until today everything I had managed to find out about him had seemed to indicate that we would get along just fine but at the same time I knew there were other aspects I had to consider, elements I knew I couldn't afford to overlook, like his connection to the military. To me that was the determining factor... the risk I knew I couldn't afford to take.
Yes, I wanted to meet him but I also knew that Jim and I couldn't afford to attract any sort of military attention, we still can't, and that had to come first. We are skating on thin enough ice as it is and we are both painfully aware of that fact... and I knew there was no way I could hope to contact my brother without causing someone to look into our records somewhere. I knew that if I were to try to contact my brother we would inevitably be letting the military into our lives in some capacity, there was no way around that, not really. Of course, in the end how I felt about it turned out to be irrelevant because the decision was taken out of my hands as a result of my own curiosity.
In a sense I'm not even sure why I was surprised when Daniel walked into the bullpen earlier today. I really should have realized that I had drawn someone's attention while I was looking into his background... in fact I know I should have given up my search as soon as I realized that he was working for the military and that the systems I was trying to break into were far more complex than anything I had ever attempted before but I didn't. My curiosity got the best of me and today's encounter was a direct consequence of that fact.
In a way I know we lucked out. Even if we are not quite out of the woods just yet the fact is that things could certainly have turned out much worse than they did... but still I know better than to let my guard down now. Yes, it's true that my brother seems like a really nice guy and his friends seem to be honest enough but at the same time I know better than to take any chances. The people we met today may have all seemed very nice, and Jim hasn't indicated that he has picked up any signs that something funny may be going on here, but we still don't know who they are working for and that is far from a comforting thought... and thats not all. To make matters worse theres also the fact that we don't really know what prompted them to come to Cascade in the first place, especially considering that during our meeting it was apparent that they didn't know why it was that I was looking into Daniel's files.
I guess in the end it all boils down to the fact that Jim and I can't afford to get cocky because we still don't know who else may know something about my little search and who else may have questions concerning Jim and I.
One thing I do know with absolute certainty, however, is that what we got today was not the whole picture. If nothing else there is the fact that both Daniel and his companions made some passing references to the fact that their team has four members... which begs the question of who is that fourth member and where is he. I am confident that we are not being watched by him... Jim would have almost certainly detected any form of mechanical surveillance and he would have pointed it out to me. That is a source of some comfort but I admit I'm still somewhat concerned about that missing team member... of course I also understand that they are a team, not conjoined twins so maybe the fourth member just stayed back in Colorado doing whatever it is that the four of them normally do.
The thing is that even though I'm happy at the thought that I've finally met my brother I am also very aware of the secrets that stand between us. He is not being honest with me and I'm not being honest with him and even though we have all the necessary ingredients for a great friendship I know for a fact that as long as those secrets stand in our way it is a relationship that will never really stand a chance.
The obvious solution would be for us to come clean with each other. That would be ideal but I am well aware that that is not a real option... for either one of us. He may be my mysterious father's son but there's no way I'm trusting Jim's secret to anyone remotely connected to the military... whether he is my brother or not. As for him, I don't know how he feels about the secrets he is keeping but I do know that even if he wanted to come clean about them, that decision probably wouldn't be up to him... that's why he has a nice colonel watching his back, which kind of begs the question of just what is an archeologist doing with an Air Force Colonel and an Air Force Major in the first place.
Yes, I freely admit that I am more than a little curious about that but I do know better than to ask. Whatever it is it screams confidential. In the end I guess that is yet another thing we have in common: we both have secrets but neither of our secrets are ours to tell.
The thing is that I can't wait until we get home. I really need to talk to Jim about all of this. I have to ask him what he thinks of our visitors. I know that while I was talking to Daniel he was talking to his companions and we really need to figure out where we stand. The fact is that even though everything turned out great today --or so it seemed-- we can't afford to be caught off guard again. It would be way too dangerous.
Daniel and his friends will be in Cascade until the day after tomorrow and hopefully that will give us a chance to get to know them better, but at the same time it means that we need to come up with a plan to deal with them and we need to come up with it yesterday because we really can't afford to make a mistake here.
Yes, Daniel and his friends seem nice enough but that doesn't mean that we won't be spending tomorrow under a military magnifying glass and that means we will have to be careful... very careful... but still, I'm looking forward to it. Tomorrow I'll get to spend the day getting to know my brother better and I still can't quite wrap my mind around that concept.
I'm looking forward to spending the day with Daniel and his companions, I'm looking forward to the chance to get to know him better... and his friends. I don't know what it is that the three of them do but I can see how close they are. Daniel may be my brother but I can tell that they are a package deal, just like Jim and I, and I can't help but wonder what led to that familiarity in the first place. At first glance they seem like such a mismatched group, though of course Jim and I don't have much of a right to say anything about that. How many people have been surprised by the connection between the two of us? I can't even pretend that I am in any position to make a guess as to what the figure would be and yet here we are, baffling them even after all these years.
It's been an eventful day, that is for sure, but over all I have to say that it's also been a great day. I met my brother today and he doesn't hate me... he even wants to get to know me better and that may well have been the biggest surprise of them all.